Why do people think they can say mean things, and then take it back? Don’t they know there are things that can never be taken back?

I have never said anything to anyone that I didn’t mean fully. I guess I learned that practice from my mother. She would say mean things, and I couldn’t understand it at the time. When you are 10 years old, it’s hard to understand why the adult in your life is losing control. She is a great mom. I love her deeply. And I don’t blame her for anything. I’m just stating facts here. She did the best she could with the information she was given. She taught me to only say what you mean, and that you can’t take anything back. Be careful with your words. I love and care deeply for my friends. I would never speak to them the way that some people speak to me that ‘claim to be my friend’. To me, that is not a friend, and it never, ever was. It never will be. It’s just not ‘how I roll’.

However, it taught me a great, great lesson. Say only what you mean. And see things for what they are. When someone gets emotional with me, even if they say they only said things because they were hurt…………….. the bottom line is, that is really how they felt. That was their true bottom line feelings. So, if they call me names, and they say I am this or that…………… they meant it. Even if they said it out of extreme hurt. Even if they felt I personally did them wrong. Even if they were attempting to say it just to hurt me. It’s still real. It’s the bottom line, the true color, the real deal. You can’t just turn around and take it back. Especially if it was written in email. Email is logged and forever. If you are saying something just to hurt someone, you still thought it in your head………… and you MEANT IT!! No matter what. You can’t ‘take it back’. That is completely silly! If you were thinking it, and it came out in a moment of passion, you MEANT IT!

I had a guy awhile back that was a really young kid. He felt he was some sort of ‘Hitch’ character. An actor in Los Angeles of self importance. He thought he could drop a couple of quick lines, and play ‘the game’ with me, and I would swoon at the first chance to be with him. I’ve been in porn for over 10 years…………… I’ve seen every ‘game’ there is. That may work on 18 year olds, but, I started in the bars at a VERY young age! It simply won’t work with me. And my biggest discovery on the internet is, if you wait…………… the true colors do come out. I told him in the nicest terms possible that I wasn’t interested. To me, he was like a rat in a maze, trying to find his way to my pussy. When his ‘game’ didn’t work………….. he wrote some VERY, VERY mean things in an email. SERIOUSLY THE WRONG MOVE!!! That will never work, and if you think the person on the other end of your email isn’t real…………….. you are so completely wrong!

The bottom line is this. If you don’t mean it, don’t say it. And don’t try to ‘take it back’. You’ve already released it into the ‘airways’. It’s already out there swirling around in someone’s mind. What is that saying? “Too little too late”. Cut your losses and move on. When “Hitch’ did that to me, I blocked him in every way. And I block ANYONE that does that to me. What is the point in continuing communication? Obviously, they think differently. And there is absolutely nothing wrong with different thinking. I encourage that! But, I will never spend the time arguing to convince someone of my point of view. Free will. Free Will. Free Will. Move on, and find someone else that will validate your point of view. I won’t. It doesn’t mean I hate you, or don’t care about you. I just won’t succumb to your abuse. I’ve learned that lesson, and I don’t need to revisit it. But, I will thank you greatly in your participation in my continued learning.

Ok……………. I know what you are thinking………….. where is the porn???? The set this week is hot, hot, hot! (I had to make sure of that, considering you listened to the ramblings of my mind!)

As always, click the photo to view the whole set!! I thought a ‘jail’ set would be appropriate, for those that feel like victims, and those that feel that they are the ‘jailers’ or tyrants.

XOXO
Jax

I guess I’m just as twisted as they come! I was raised extremely strict Catholic, and from that, I obviously rebelled. It is my belief that the more confined and forbidden we make something, the more we want to do it. I was told growing up that sex was really bad! Yet, my father had Playboy magazine’s in the magazine rack. I remember looking at them when I was only 9 years old and thinking, “My dad likes this, I’m going to grow up and look just like those girls!”. And I did. Am I blaming my parents for me getting into porn? Of course not! No one held a gun to my head. I made a perfectly rational grown up decision based on my own hormone’s!

The very first time I ever gave anyone head, it was in the basement of our church that I was forced to go to every Sunday. I never quite looked at it the same after that, and I had gotten my first real lesson in hypocricy from the guy I gave the head to. I can’t remember his name, but, for fun, we will call him Ted. Ted was a ‘jock’ at school, and a complete dickhead. We were making out in the church basement, and he pushed my head down onto his cock. It happened so fast, he came all over my face. I can’t say it was alot of fun at the time. I think I was only 16 years old. (maybe younger). Then, afterwards, he proceeded to tell me that giving head was okay, that wasn’t sex. (He must have been to Clinton’s school of thought!) He told me how religious he was, and how he was such a good person, blah, blah, blah, blah!

He ignored me at school, but, tried to get me into that church basement when ever he could! I never went back. The only thing I went into the basement for after that were donuts and coffee. I had to see him every Sunday, and my parents were convinced of what a ‘nice boy’ he was. And why didn’t I invite him over to the house. I thought, ‘oh my! If you only knew’ My dad would have served Ted’s balls up for dinner if he had known!

Since then, I am completely rebellious towards religion. So, my girlfriend, Ashley Renee has been completely nervous to do a religious set, and she finally did one this week! (It’s super hot by the way!) And she was even nervous to actually put it on her site. Of course, I egged her on! It’s totally hot and if people are offended, well, then, I guess you shouldn’t be looking at a porn site to begin with. If this offends you, you need to go repent right now! And don’t bother praying for my soul. There are plenty out there that are already doing that. Trust me, I get those hipocritical emails as well. Call me a sinner, call me a blasphemous, call me what ever you want. Like my blog says, no regrets, and definately no apologies!

If it doesn’t offend you………….. I hope you go check out her site. I think it’s absolutely sexy!

The Cardinal learns of Ashley’s most unholy affairs. He ties her up and makes her beg for forgiveness as he tries to rid her soul of the sin that has taken over. Can Ashley’s soul be saved? This is just a couple of example photos, click to photos to see more!!!

Love,
Jackie

Ashley and I have been friends for a really long time. We got to know each other over our love for sushi, and our love for fetish. Though I’m not living in Los Angeles anymore, we talk on the phone just about every day. We always laugh together, no matter what.

Ashley is a submissive, through and through. She’s the real deal. I enjoy submission as well, but, my personality is a bit strong. It takes one hell of a man to break me. But, when and if he does get through my strength, he unlocks an insatiable sex beast! But, Ashley is just a natural submissive. When we go out to restaurants, many times, she makes me order for her. (Always topping from the bottom! hehehe)

Inevitably, if we are ever in a situation, I will always step up and protect her. But, I’m naturally protective of my friends. Her submissive self will gladly let me do that. She’s not a push over, there’s a HUGE difference.

We had a big discussion the other day between the difference of a 24/7 slave, and a submissive. Many men just want that slave, (which is actually what I expect out of my male slaves!). And the fantasy of that is awesome, trust me, I understand it completely. But, the reality of being a 24/7 submissive would just never work for me. I have a life. The fantasy is great, the reality would never happen.

However, I absolutely think that Ashley is SO sexy when she’s in her subspace. And if I could have her 24/7, I wouldn’t say no!!! She’s damn hot! And with purple being one of my favorite colors, I LOVE this bondage set.

Ashley is in hot stockings, collared like a good slave, and strategically bound. You can click on the photos to see more of her hot photos in this set!!!

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Love,
Jackie